WINGS TO MY HOPES

                            WINGS TO MY HOPES

Somewhere along the line I had lost hope

A hope that I had held onto for the longest time,

A hope that kept me going.

The hope of finding love again

A love that consumes me for all the right reasons 

A love that holds me as intensely as I

But did god have a different plan for me?

Is this the person I was meant to be with all along?

Or is it one of the many tests that I have to go through?

With a hope for the best, I plunged into it,

Fighting with all my might against the negative thoughts

Mindful of not hurting the one who doesn't deserve it

But everything is a mess and the patience to clear them, I have not.

Irritation at little things and numbness in my heart is all that I posses

But I try to be the best I can for him

Letting go of my fears are not easy, but will it ever be?

Will I ever trust people as I used to?

These are things I keep pondering, hoping time will heal everything

Even after everything, I just need to let this out

That I absolutely love him

I don't know if a person this genuine exists

Or is it just a mere facade?

But whatever it be, I genuinely wish it works out

Signing off with this bit of hope

With this bit of love

And this bit of positivity.